Note 2 Self: Don’t get involved with weak boys/men, their leadership skills are either going to frustrate, stress, or piss you off. Which will eventually lead to all three. Your sanity is very important so don’t get involved with anyone that you will end up baby sitting or disciplining. From what I recall you aint have no kids. Don’t get involved with liars either, you know how you get with those…you feel like driving to the edge of a cliff and pushing him off. So stay faaarrrr away from males like this. If any red flag goes up, magnify it immediately, DONT IGNORE IT. Time, emotions, and resentment lists can be avoided and saved. :) #Good #Day
Have you ever thought about how cool it would be to be a super Hero. I know I do. :) All the time. I even sometimes feel I am a super hero in my head. To be controlling things with my mind, smashing big buildings, stopping bullets. Hmmmm. And these super heroes where are they getting this strength from?! Yeah on the surface it seems like it’s some freak accident that happened and he or she is being supplied with unlimited power. But what about when something happens drastically and they are altered or that power is gone for a few scenes. What happens? That super hero begins to search on the inside of them. Deep within them to find something to give them a push to let them know that despite anything and everything I will be ok. I will come out victorious. You may call it motivation, drive, I call it Faith. When I was 16 or 17, I started feeling a pain in one of my breast. Like annoying persistent pain. I don’t like the hospital so I wasn’t going there. I didn’t tell anyone because I didn’t want to hear what they were going to tell me or I knew they were going to tell me to go to the doctor and that is a no no. Mind you I feel like I’d rather die than go to a hospital. Anyways, so like three days into that week my other breast started hurting as well. I kept rubbing my chest like crazy not understanding what was happening to me. So when it started to worsen, I simply said “God handle this” My mom was in the car with me and she was like why do you keep rubbing your breast and I was like I don’t know it keeps hurting but I know that God is going to heal me so …*shrugs. Well church was Friday night. When the service was ending the pastor took a gallon of water and prayed over it. He said everyone take a cup and drink some of the water and believe that whatever in you that needs healing will be healed. I drank and said God remove this pain. The next day I went to the restroom, and I am not trying to be grotesque but their was some funky stuff in my stool. I just gave a disgusted look and flushed. The same night I went to sleep and dreamed that I Was in the waiting room of a clinic waiting to get a check up. When I was getting a physical, the doctor touched my breast. I flinched. Then he said come here and touched it again. Then he looked at me and said, “Do you know that you were supposed to have breast Cancer, but God healed you of that!” I don’t remember how the dream ended, but I am hear to let you know that We are connected to the GREATEST SUPER HERO, HE HAS NO WEAKNESS AND HE IS NEVER UNFAITHFUL. Whatever it is that you need to be done for you God has the power to do it. In the Bible, people are awakened from Death, healed, delivered all because of FAITH. Don’t doubt God. He is the most High, not 2nd not 15th. The MOST HIGH. The strength that you search for on the inside is your Faith. Believe in God and any mountain will be moved, Every demon will be rebuked, all curses will be broken, all downs will go up and everything will be OK. Thank You Father for healing a nobody like Denise. I am so thankful for all that You do for me and what You will continue to do for me. You have set me free. I love You. In Jesus name, Amen. -xoxoForgiven
Although she is my sister, in my heart she is my mom. Thank You Anne for raising me into this moral filled Jesus freak. Love You :) Happy Mothers Day #Mothers #Day #Anne #sister #Love (Taken with instagram)
Happy Mothers Day mommy. I want to one day make you happy. :) Love You. PS Thanks for not kicking me out yet lol #Mom #Happy #Mothers #Day #Love (Taken with instagram)
As I was sitting @ work, talking to God this shame , regret and guilt came upon my spirit!
The feeling that I get when a guy doesn’t show me attention day after day, must be a small percentage of what God feels when I don’t speak to Him on a daily basis! From now on, my duty is to speak to God @ least 3x a day!! I feel so shameful for making Him feel this way, for so long. Those days and weeks I would completely go on with daily tasks neglecting Him…sooo morning, noon and night, I’m going to converse with God! I am also sure that any feeling that I have felt when I have been betrayed is a very small portion of what God feels when I choose to sin rather than follow His Word! God, I do apologize for making You feel this way, because I know that these are some of the worst emotions that I sometimes have to battle…& since Your my One & Only, with most deep regret I do apologize for making You feel that way. I apologize for choosing sin, when my conscience, when You were telling me No! I am so sorry for Always thinking that I was so Independent to fight my own battles, as You grievingly watched me tear myself apart, aching for me to turn to You and ask for help! I am so sorry for putting Faith in the physical; getting excited over stupidity when I should only be excited of Your Love, love that no one will ever be able to reproduce. I apologize for not sharing You when someone was lost and or hurting and I just tried to tell them to be strong, when that can only be possible through You! You are the solution, and will ALWAYS be the solution! Now, before I get into the battlefield, I won’t think that I am high and mighty, I won’t try to take YOUR fame and claim it was me, because I AM NOTHING! It is because of You that I make it through every single time!! It’s because of You that I can stand in front of my enemies, because You are right there standing with me, NOT GIVING INTO ANYTHING, NEVER BACKING DOWN, PROVING THAT ALL CONTRACTS OF SIN WAS DESTROYED THROUGH YOUR BLOOD! And through Your Holy Spirit you continue to equip me with SPIRITUAL power!! (lol..Kanye West is of foolishness…please sit down!) I am so sorry Lord, because when I see You, I want to hear something that resembles this: Yes, I know Denise, She put me first in all she said & did. She honored me through her lifestyle and I was seen in her character. She made me famous and never allowed pride to make her believe that anything was of her, she always knew it was of Me. She denied the pleasures of the flesh and focused only on Me. She praised Me in everything, unlike others who searched for Me only when times seemed rough. She didn’t leave Me @ the front door when she got around others, she always introduced Me as her #1, clung to Me and was NEVER ashamed of me. She called Me, when she was confused, hurt and rejoiced with Me when she was happy. Yeah, Denise I know her and now she is free from the sin and pains of the world….
Thank You Jesus, for no matter how much I have sinned against You, you always took me back in my worst state. And I am greatful for the Victory you took up for me at the cross. You took the physical pain for me & gave me Freedom forever, and through that Victory I can one day be near You! All God’s children are not of this world, our citizenship is in Heaven!
Have a good day everyone!
Note: I wasn’t in my feelings when I was writing this, I was in the Spirit! :)
"Hallelujah! You have won the Victory. Hallelujah! You have won it all for me! Death could not hold You down. You are the Risen King. Seated in Majesty. You are the Risen King!"- The Anthem (Planetshakers)
Written on NOVEMBER 2010
Lately I have been seeing things in another light. If you ask God to renew your mind He will show you things in a brand new way. You become more understanding, you become more susceptible to the deeper issues that people may be experiencing. You look at others out of Love. You become less judgemental. You respond to needs through prayer. God continue to transform my mind, my heart, & my actions. Make me more Christlike. I long to be a proper representation of who You are.
Your in a jail cell and your addictions visit you day and night. You’ve been in there so long that you picked up a new reality. When I tell you that you are strongly held down, you laugh. You say there is nothing wrong. You hallucinate. I love the person you are. Your so full of life and wonderful potential. But you are trapped and may never get out. You may never develop and become the person that you were born to be. You have been addicted for so long that you enjoy being deceived. Your breathe patterns are shorter than normal, but to you it’s normal. You killed your conscience long ago. You smile and don’t know what for. Your smile…it’s so empty. I wish I could stay, but your married to your addictions. You commune with them. You can’t go a day without them. You focus on them. “I would put my life before them.” You say. Oh the sadness when I look in at you. Dying. Your choice will always be yours and I don’t have the power to change that. I do pray for the veils over your eyes to be removed. That one day you would give Jesus the chance to save you. To give you freedom. But your so warped that I am afraid when the opportunity comes you will approach the cell’s door and lock it back up. The sadness. But I can’t take no more. I am afraid if I stay around those walls I may be deceived as well. I refuse to exchange Truth for lies. I walk the streets a free woman. And hope that one day I’ll see you walking a free man. And we’ll wave and have a chat. But that is what my faith can hope for. So long my friend. Maybe in a year or two something will have changed. But I have to move on. I will always pray for your freedom and your sight. Maybe one day you’ll experience true FREEDOM, and one day understand. Jesus set the Captives Free….
Despite the multitudes that come against you, still Trust in God. Our God is so awesome. He won’t allow you to be embarrassed in front of your enemies. Be still and know that He is God. When Daniel was thrown into the lions den. God sent him protection. Whatever your facing continue to Trust in God. God is there with you every step of the way. Call on Him, and He will answer. “And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.” (Daniel 6:23) God is in control of everything. When He acts no one can reverse it. There is no other God. He established the heavens and the earth. Our God is greater than anything or anyone you may face. Keep uplifting your faith and watch God work. He is always faithful. And if our God is for us then who can stand against us. Be blessed folks. :)